Weekly Growth Tracker – Marissa

Weekly Growth Tracker – Marissa
Week of: June 15th- June 21st

1. HEART CHECK

1. How would you describe your relationship with God this week?
☐ Close and connected
☐ A bit distant
☐ Struggling

Comment:

Honestly, I feel all of the above. I often feel God’s presence deeply and experience the comfort of the Holy Spirit but at the same time, I feel desperate and uncomfortable in the waiting. It feels like God has made me wait too long, and I’ve started to question His goodness. That’s left me feeling confused, angry, and numb.

It’s painful to watch others thrive in their calling, have prayers answered, or step into open doors while I still feel stuck. My hope in Jesus feels like it’s fading. I catch myself believing, “If He hasn’t done it yet, maybe He won’t.” That thinking is leading me to act out of lack and try to make things happen in my own strength.

I know it’s not unforgiveness. I’m not bitter at others - it’s more of a deep sadness. I feel left behind, and my faith feels fragile. I’ve even started wondering if I need to start over at a different church if I want to serve God,  grow in the gifts he’s given me and serve where I feel called. 

2. Did you experience offense, frustration, or anger this week (toward God, church, people)?
☐ Yes
☐ No

If yes, how did you respond?
☐ Prayed and processed with God
☐ Talked it through with someone
☐ Still holding on to it

Comment:

Yes - I’m offended, but mostly at myself. I feel like I can’t give God my all, and I used to blame people or circumstances for holding me back. But if God is the one who promotes, then maybe the issue is with me.  That thought is crushing. I keep wondering, what’s wrong with me?

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick” feels real right now. I’m discouraged, and struggling to see the bigger picture of what God is doing. I want to trust but I feel stuck in disappointment. I’m starting to think I can just live the way I want if God doesn’t care anyway, or doesn’t actually want me to serve Him in the way I think he does. Maybe I’m wrong this whole time. 

3. What’s one thing you’re thankful for this week?

My family.

Sunshine. 

My car, rides to Robins in the morning, through the dirt roads

Suana

Neighbourhood Block party

Tea with Grandma

Time with God in the woods

Soccer games with Blake 

Facetimes with Ashley

Steph is doing great!
Kayaking! 

Tea with Jam and bread (and butter)

Duvet cover

Relationship with Eric constantly being restored. He is so fun!

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2. SPIRITUAL GROWTH 

Current Spiritual Goal:
(e.g., daily Bible time, forgiveness work, start therapy)

➡ Goal:Starting therapy next week!
➡ This week’s step/task: Starting therapy next week! This week - 45mins of bible reading a day. Worship the Lord everyday! Sing to him!  

Did I do it? ☐ Yes ☐ No ☐ In Progress

Notes / Prayer Needs:

Feel assured that God has a purpose for me. Praying for Gods clear direction in my life. 

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3. LEADERSHIP & SERVING

Current Leadership Goal:
(e.g., consistent team serving, responding well to feedback, showing unity)

➡ Goal:Respond well to feedback, Show unity.

➡ This week’s leadership/serving moment:

Practice writing a 5/10 min preach
Texting an encouraging text to Livia.

Checkin on Kelechi

Checkin on Paulina

Checkin on Grace
Checkin w Sarah James

Asking my grandma if she needs help with anything. How can I love her better

take on some welcome spot calls (ask Rose/Keziah/ Heather)

Follow up with the Redwoods Park church kids team (They asked me to join, sent me an email)

How did it go?
☐ Great
☐ Mixed
☐ Needs growth

What did I learn or notice about myself?

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4. CREATIVE / PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT

Current Personal/Creative Goal:
(e.g., assist with video shoot, practice flexibility, go to therapy)

➡ Goal: Go to therapy, collect Seaglass and make something with it.  Consider practicing guitar this week multiple times / what that would look like
➡ Step this week: _________________________________

Progress: ☐ None ☐ In Progress ☐ Complete

Challenges or Wins:

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5. NEXT STEPS & ENCOURAGEMENT

One thing I want to do differently next week:

Not interrupt others. Not feel so insecure in Gods plan for my life.

One way I can serve with joy (not frustration):

Reminding myself of the God Factor when feeling Doubtful. Enjoy worshiping Him without abandon!

Encouragement from Caris:
(Caris fills this out)

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🔁 MONTHLY REVIEW (Every 4th Week)

☐ Have I been consistent in therapy or emotional support?
☐ Have I grown in forgiving quickly and letting go of offense?
☐ Am I serving from peace and unity?
☐ Do I feel more emotionally grounded this month?

Anything to change or adjust moving forward?